I have lost it.no more killing.nowhere to go.nothing to believe.she made me this way.but I didn't see it.always troubled and never having peace around.I've changed for you.maybe its time for you to do the same for me?I can't pull myself together now.cause she hurt me too much.hurt me where I bleed the most.I bet you don't know the blind sacrifices I made just to see your face.I don't want to move on because I can't find the archetype of you in any of them.now you leave me in silence when you were my center of attention day and night,wind or gust,rain and storm.those days with you remain in me but they are starting to tarnish and fade away with lesser meaning in them.now I can't explain this to myself.im bleeding till there is no blood left and the pain is still here.I can see you near me like the sun but I still feel the coldness.you leave me scarred.you leave me empty taking my life away and throwing it away.you killed my adolescent.you deceived me.I won't be the same again.I wish I had a choice.I wish you could understand.all the things I said and all the things you heard are all true.there is nothing more that I can give.let me out.or just kill me.
- 9:56 PM